Today is a day when there is double stuff going on in my heart. It is this sort of thing that only a mother can truly understand. If you are a mother, you will experience it if you have not already.
On one hand my heart is seared. Seared because of the burning ache lingering there. For the first time, my oldest son will not be with us for his birthday. In four days he will be nineteen years old. He lives in Atlanta about 1800 miles away.Last September when my husband was offered a job here in the Phoenix area, our oldest son announced that he felt as though he was to stay put in Atlanta. Some wonderful friends offered to let him live with them while he worked and saved money. At first my heart was seared. I heard so many voices that were internal as well as external. Some were loud, some were whispered. And five months later to this day, I struggle from time to time with the suggestions of why he did not move here with us. I heard things like, "He is rejecting you and all you ever taught him." Or, "I do not blame him. He has been the oldest for so many years. He needs a break."
I have honestly battled some force of rejection feeling like my oldest son just wants to flee from our family. However, this is not true. When the voices come I stop and ask, "What is the truth and what is the lie?" The true Voice within me always straightens out the twisted facts.
For a son to want to separate from his family is a very healthy thing especially if he is taking independent steps to live responsibly, to search for his purpose, and to even tread out within reason into some areas of life he has never experienced.
My heart is seared because it is hard to let your babies go. It is difficult, yet sweet and exhilarating at the same time, to see them beginning to spread their wings. Yet the mother in you wants to cradle that child forever. And I do cradle him in my heart even though he is now too big and too far away to be cradled in my arms.
Yes, I am seared because I want him here with me on his birthday. I want to make him his favorite ice-cream cake and give him a hug. However, I am soothed because God has provided comfort in so many ways. I have little arms around me right now and little lips and cheeks to kiss. And I have an honest voice within me that is reassuring me that my now grown baby is in the care and covering of the Lord as he drives to work, travels around the city of Atlanta, and lives his life as a wonderful young man seeking his purpose in life.
What a bittersweet season this is. Today my heart aches yet rejoices at the same time. How can anyone understand other than a mother!
And I want to add one more thing. I am proud of you Bradley. I rejoice that you heard God's voice and chose to go against the norm. You did not cave into pressure and you are touching lives right where you are. You are in no rush to fit into a mold or to be a man pleaser. But you wait on the Lord allowing Him to steer your life. Happy Birthday son. Your life is and has always been a priceless gift. Love,Mom
This morning was sad for me. My father in law, sister in law and brother in law left to go back to S.C. They were with us all this past week. We had a wonderful time together. I miss them! Since yesterday was their last day we took them out to the local regional park to see more of the local desert sights. The sky was crystal blue and the temperatures were in the high 70s. We took a walk along one of the trails and Kerry took some beautiful photos of blooms, cacti, and he even caught some shots of a little desert hare.
I learned that the word desert is derived from the latin word "deserere" which means "abandoned". However, if you venture out there you will see that the desert is far from forsaken. I am amazed at the abundance of life found there. I cannot wait until spring to go back out and see more flowers. I think God gives us sweet messages from the desert. Sometimes my heart feels abandoned or empty like the desert. However, if I ask Him to fill me up with His presence, He will come and cause beauty to grow in the most barren places. Our God is full of surprises and I am blessed by His creation! Enjoy the photos!
Mexican Gold PoppyThese little beauties bloom in the desert from the months of February through May. They carpet the desert floor with their yellow and orange hues.
Indian Paintbrush Flowers
Abundance of life in the desert Kerry took this great shot of a little rabbit playing in the desert
Brittlebush There are already signs of spring in the desert.These little blooms have two sets of leaves. One set is for cooler weather. They are deep green which enables them to absorb more sunlight. In the intense heat, paler green leaves with little white hairs appear which acts as a sunscreen for the leaves to help keep them from getting burned.
We decided Saturday evening to "bite the bullet" and get up early Sunday morning to travel up to the Grand Canyon. We made reservations for one night a little south of the Canyon. What awaited us was like a wrapped gift. As we traveled further North, the ground became more and more blanketed in pure, soft, white snow. It was the most beautiful snow I had ever seen. There was none on the road, but there was at least one foot in some areas and even more in others. There was snow all over the Grand Canyon. I felt as though I was looking at something unreal. But real it was.
We awoke the next morning to a beautiful view of a snow capped mountain out of our hotel window. Afterwards, we traveled approximately one hour south to my most favorite part of the trip....Sadona, Arizona. In the photos below, you will see pictures of large red rock mountains. The beauty of this place was so unique . I just fell in love with it. There were beautiful cacti growing out of the side of the rock. As I gazed upon the unique lovely landscape of Sadona, I could not help but giggle as I had a picture of God sitting around the rocks chiseling out His own designs! I am amazed at the gorgeous scenery in the state of Arizona. From the valley of cactus,palm trees and rugged mountains to the snow capped peaks, red rock formations, and the endless depth of the Grand Canyon. I am so blessed to have been able to experience the handiwork of God here!!!
This my friend Karen's beautiful blog. Her husband just redesigned it and it is so pretty. I met Karen through the blogging community and she has been such a great friend. Bless you Karen! Check out her precious blog.
If you have a dream bigger than you, then God probably gave it to you. Dream it, write it out, and take small steps. Before you know it , you will see the invisible become visible and the impossible become possible.
Welcome to a Heart at Home
Click. Click. Click. Hello! Is that you clicking on the door of my little nook on the net? Welcome. Come on in and let me share my life with you. My life and heart are open and may you find something of value here that will lift your heart, inspire you or just give you a little break from the demands of your busy day. The coffee is ready and the pumpkin muffins are fresh and hot. Have a seat and relax!
A Heart at Home is one that gives, lives, loves, laughs,rests,heals,nurtures, and edifies other hearts that either dwell within our houses or enter in for a visit. This blog is my gift to you. Whether you are a stay home mother, newly married, a grandmother, a single mother, or single woman who desires to bring life and hope to others, there is plenty here for you.
A young single woman once told me she felt as though she was intruding when she read these blogs because she is not yet a mother or wife. However, if your dreams are to create places of life and love wherever you are or wherever you tread, I hope you will find encouragement, inspiration and useful tools here.
Imparting love, life and the gifts of home are limitless. Wherever your journey in life leads you, you have the opportunity to shed light and to be a living vessel that releases all the elements that make others feel at home.
You are meant to create and to take your life out to be shared. You are meant to be free to love and to open your heart to others who need a breath of refreshment . May we utilize the tools, gifts, and abilities God has given us and spread abundant life to those within our circles of influence.
In this little nook you will find various things. A collage of sorts from my personal life and journey. There will be insights, struggles, joy, frustration, stories, art, simple ideas for the home, photos, recipes and much more. Welcome to my little pad on the net! You are always welcome to my Heart at Home!
I am wife to John for 24 years and stay home mother of nine children, ages 19 to 2 years old. We homeschool 5 of our children. Our oldest lives in Canton, GA and our 16 year old is in public high school. We live in Gilbert, Arizona and are new residents here-learning the area and adjusting to the changes.
My heart is to create a loving and comfortable enviroment in my home for my husband, children and friends. I appreciate the privilege of being a stay home mother. I also love to read, write, create art, decorate, teach, and help lead other women to walk closely with the Lord and to be all He has called them to be. I believe the home is the best place to to be creative,to share hope and love. Home should be a haven of hope for those who dwell within and for those who enter in.
Contentment is knowing you own everything that cannot be bought. ACogburn
Caught on a Thought
Do not call me a Christian. There are too many Christians who do not believe.
Do not call me a believer. There are too many who believe but do not act on what they believe.
But please call me a disciple. A disciple is a learner. A disciple is one who takes what he learns and acts upon it. A disciple is one who is passionate about what he believes in and is not ashamed to let others know. A disciple spends himself for others regardless of the cost.
Call me a disciple. Call me crazy. But a disciple is what I want to be. A Cogburn
God takes the scraps of a shredded heart and creates wondrous beauty. Ange
The loveliness of home is simply the overflow of heavenly trinkets encased within the treasure chest called the human heart. Ange
Appreciate your present blessings called jewels of the moments. Ange
Our Christmas Eve tradition of homemade pizzas!
Sara and Heather team up to make a giant cheese pizza
Jamie is creating his deep dish pizza
Our Family Room on Christmas Eve
cookies for Santa
Christmas Eve in the spa
Happy 6th Birthday Joshua
Joshua, you are a gift . We thank the Lord for every moment of your life.
This recipe is made in a bread machine. However, if you do not have one, there are really delicious pizza crusts you can buy premade. Pillsbury makes a really good pizza crust in a can. It is sold in the refrigerated biscuit section in the grocery store.
Add all of these ingredients to the bread pan in the order given.
1-1/2 cup warm water 4 Tbl. olive oil 4-1/4 cup all purpose flour 2 tsp. salt 2 tsp. sugar 2 tsp. yeast
If your machine is equipped with a "dough only" feature, use this setting.
When dough is finished, remove to a floured board if using immediately. Or place the dough in a bowl greased with olive oil, turn dough over to coat it, cover with plastic wrap and refridgerate until ready to use.
We use pizza sauce in a jar. Use pizza cheese and your selection of toppings such as beef, pepperoni, onion, mushrooms, etc.
This 2 pound recipe makes 2, 12 inch pies. Bake pizzas at about 375 until crust is done.
Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivereth him out of them all. Psalm 31:19
God never promised this world would be free of trouble. In fact, He said in this world you shall have tribulation. He never said He would keep us from trials. However, He does promise that He will deliver us out of our afflictions. If you are suffering today through illness or sorrow, hardship or discouragement, be comforted that God is with You and He will bring you out. Do not lose heart.
Mountain in Mesa, AZ (near Phoenix)
Taken by Kerry
Phoenix landscape by Kerry
These photos were taken at Usary Park In Mesa, AZ.
John and Ange
A Fun Night Out!
Me and my friend Debbie
Mom, Kerry, and Timmy
These precious little angels cost about 4 cents to make. They can be used as ornaments or as a bow on a gift. We plan to make some to give to neighbors along with pumpkin muffins. Because they are so simple and inexpensive, you could give a dozen or so to a neighbor, friend or family member. They can then choose to use them as bows or ornaments. All of the materials were purchased at Walmart and the dollar store for under 8 dollars. This will make at least 50 angels.
1 package of white coffee filters 1 package of raffia silver or gold plastic wedding rings (in craft section of Walmart) your choice of narrow ribbon-gold, white or silver (purchased at Walmart for 45 cents for 5 yards. small styraphome balls or gold bells (purchased at dollar store) glue gun
Flatten out two coffee filters. Place small ball or bell in center. gather filter around the ball or bell and tie tightly with narrow ribbon. Tie ribbon into bow. Take several strands of raffia (about 3 to 4 inches) and tie into bow. Hot glue the bow to back of angel for the wings. Hot glue plastic ring to the angel's head. Use a single strand of raffia or gold thread to glue to the back of the angel's head if you want to make it into an ornament.
Get the whole family involved so you will not cheat on them! A fun and easy project. ENJOY the simplicity!
As you are planning your Thanksgiving meal this year do not forget to add the cranberry sauce. As you are serving and enjoying this traditional side dish remember what it represents this Thanksgiving. Here are some neat facts you can copy and share on Thanksgiving Day with your family.
Cranberry is a small sour berry which grows in bogs or muddy areas. (Remember good things grow out of messy places. God is the Redeemer)
Indians used cranberries to heal infections. (May this Thanksgiving be a time of healing if you need it)
The dye in cranberries was used to color the Indian's rugs and blankets. (May you be covered in God's blessings this year)
Indians taught the settlers how to cook a sauce with cranberries, water, and sweetener. (May every bitter thing in your life be sweetened this Thanksgiving)
The colonists called cranberry "crane-berry" because the flowers bent the stalk over and it resembled the long neck bird called the crane. (May you remember that God teaches us humility (bends us) through hardship. He wants you to depend on Him.
Even today before the berries are sent out to the rest of the country from New England, each individual berry must bounce at least 4 inches high to make sure they are not too ripe. (May your heart bounce and leap in knowing God's heart for you.
My sister-in-law shared this recipe with me last week. Her pastor's wife had shared it with her. We tried it out last night and it is delicious. We made four of them for our family as one only serves two people. The children had a blast helping and we all enjoyed eating them. Craving chocolate? You must try this!! YUMMY!
Add dry ingredients to mug and mix well. Add the egg and mix thoroughly Pour in milk and oil and mix well. Add the chocolate chips if using and vanilla flavoring. Mix again.
Place mug in microwave and cook for 3 minutes at 1000 watts. the cake will rise over the top of the mug, but don't be alarmed.
Allow to cool a little. Tip out onto a plate if desired or slice into individual pieces.
Tommy, our 16 year old had a great idea. Buy mugs at the dollar store. Place all dry ingredients inside a baggie. Place inside of mug. Write the recipe on a small card to tie onto the handle of the mug. Only the moist ingredients will need to be added. Wrap in colored clear wrap and tie with bow.
Makes great gift for friends, teachers, neighbors and family. Happy Holidays!
After the birth of my 9th child, two women from Taiwan came to stay with us to help care for our family. Every morning one of the precious women would bring me a special smoothie before breakfast. It relaxed me and gave me energy for the morning. Avocados have received a bad "rap" because of the fat content. However,health benefits outweigh the fat content.
Why are avocados good for you? 1.One avocado is filled with 30% more potassium than a banana. 2.One avocado provides 30% of the needed daily dosage of folate. This makes them especially good for pregnant women. 3.It is a seratonin food. They will boost your mood. Because they contain monosaturated fats, they help keep receptors in the brain sensitive to seratonin. 4.They help lower blood pressure. 5. They are loaded with good fats that boost your good cholesterol and help clean arteries.
In moderation, avocados have many benefits. Here is a simple recipe for women. Treat yourself and relax.
Blend together until creamy. Pour into a tall chilled glass. Sit in your favorite chair or enjoy as a "pick me up" while you are preparing lunch.
About once a week, our 14 year old son, Kerry, will create smoothies as a family treat. You can get as creative as you would like. These are less expensive than a night out for ice cream .However we still take the kids out periodically for Dairy Queen Sundays or cones.
Kerry's Strawberry Smoothie
1/2 lb of frozen strawberries 1 cup ice 1 to 1 1/2 cup of plain yogurt 1 cup of apple juice or Welches Cherry Burst Juice 1 cup sugar or 1/2 cup honey 1/2 to 1 cup lowfat milk
Add ingredients to blender. Blend until smooth. Add more milk or juice if needed.
Add graham crackers or Teddy Grahams for a yummy crunch.
Create a simple photo album of each family member. You can purchase small ones at the dollar store for single photos in each cover. Assemble album to keep by your special chair or quiet time retreat. During your prayer time, open your photo album. Place your hand on each loved one and pray individually for each person.
Hold Loosely, by Tommy
Life Matters, by Tommy
Freedom Awaits, by Tommy
Celebrate Life Always-Joshua
family-Jamie, Sara, Heather
"Whispering Prints", by Tommy
A Great Friend: Your Crock Pot
Enjoy more time with your family or friends this weekend. Try this as a meal or snack.
3 to 4 pound bag frozen meatballs (homestyle) 3 10 1/4 cans cream mushroom or celery soup 4 oz can button mushrooms 16 oz jar Cheese Whiz 1 meduim onion, diced
Combine ingredients in crock pot.Cover and cook on low 6 to 8 hours. Use as an appetizer or serve over rice as a main dish. Jasmine rice is delicious. Serve with salad.
The kids love this. Adults too! It can be served as a side dish for lunch or dinner and even as a dessert.
2 cans of tropical fruit mix (drained) 2 15 oz. cans mandarin oranges (drained) 1 banana peeled and sliced 1 8 oz. container of light cool whip
Mix all fruit together with light cool whip. Chill and serve when needed. Easy to double or add your own fruits. Add slivered almonds to give a crunch if desired. Loaded with vitamin C. Enjoy.
Take a Walk, by Tommy
Berries, by Tommy
Retreat your family with Easy Pumpkin Muffins
1 can of pumpkin
1 box of yellow moist cake mix
ground cinnamon to taste
1/2 teaspoon ground cloves
1/2 teaspoon all spice
1 teaspoon vanilla flavoring
Mix all ingredients by hand. Place in greased muffin tins. Bake at 350 for about 25 minutes or until toothpick comes out clean.
Yeilds about 3 dozen mini muffins.
Serve with coffee or tea
Melts in your mouth and comforts the weary.